I am a nurse in a critical care unit. I see people die all the time. I am very comfortable around death. That being said, when it is your own family member it becomes much more difficult.
My father passed away at midnight on December 6th.
I loved him. I will miss him. He was very sick for a very long time and I know now he is in a better place so I feel relieved in many ways.
I lost my brother 4 years ago at just 33 years old. That was not as easy. In fact I felt like my heart will have a huge piece missing that will never return. Life goes on. It just does. It must!
This is a poem by George Bernard Shaw that really speaks to me about death and how I want to view my own death when the time comes.
I want to be thoroughly used up when I die.
For the harder I work, The more I live.
I rejoice in life for it's own sake.
Life is no "brief candle" to me.
It is a sort of splendid torch which I have got to hold for a moment,
and I will make it burn as brightly as possible before handing it on to future generations.
~George Bernard Shaw
I cannot thank you all enough for your love and support and prayers through this difficult time. I truly treasure each and every one of you and sometimes I don't know how I would make it through without my blog. My gratitude is immeasurable. THANK YOU! and God bless you!