Shhhh.......



Last night I went to work................knotts in my stomach....I went in early to give a co worker a baby gift and the closer and closer I got to the building........I knew I was going to throw up . My nerves and anxiety at it's peek, and I did. 

Sometimes when my anxiety goes so sky high for months and months at a time I start to manifest physical symptoms. My body is trying to tell me something and I'm trying so hard to close all those little outlets that are screaming at me 24 hours a day, 7 days a week and just listen. 

Shhhhhhhhhh........................................

I have found myself in a bit of a mess my friends. Phycologically I am having a hard time. I have the weight of the world on my shoulders and I can't stop obsessively worrying. 

It is starting to affect my health in very scary ways so I am going to go to my humble corner now, be quiet and just try to listen.

I hope something will come.

Shhhhhhhhhh.......

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24 comments:

Marina {Yummy Mummy) said...

I'm sorry things have been hard lately. It will get better. You're wise to slow down and listen. You are doing a lot. Too much. I have anxiety too. Only since becoming a mom though. I keep telling myself I need to take more yoga classes. Are you able to run again? That's the only thing that keeps me sane. Well, kinda sane ;)

Cat J B said...

Thinking of you. Best wishes...

Barry and Rena said...

I'd also suggest yoga. Very quieting and good for the body AND mind! Find a level 3 class so you will be challenged. You can really work up a sweat yet come away feeling peaceful and invigorated. Good luck and relax!!!

Barry and Rena said...

I'd also suggest yoga. Very quieting and good for the body AND mind! Find a level 3 class so you will be challenged. You can really work up a sweat yet come away feeling peaceful and invigorated. Good luck and relax!!!

Rita and John said...

You are handling so much right now and you just came through a real disappointment. Try to do some things for yourself and know that many of us are cheering you on, even when we don't always take the time to comment. :)

A Place to Reside said...

Be well, Hanna. Much encouragement to you; you have certainly encouraged me many times.

CB_Wilson said...

Not sure how you feel about this, but I have been in a similar situation for about 3 years. So similar to yours it's sometimes scary to read your posts. I can tell you what finally started to get me through, or should I say "Who". I started getting daily devotionals and praying and trusting. Exercise, yoga and overall being healthy helped me tremendously but as you can already see, they didn't work without one other thing. Once I turned my problems over to Him and trusted he'd handle it, my life has gotten SO much easier. I can handle it now. The power of trust, faith and prayer, lots of prayer worked wonders for me! I'm glad to share more info and chat if you need it! I feel your pain so tremendously because really, my story is SO much like yours!

Lindsay said...

I get like this way to much too. It's hard to juggle all the balls. Try and relax when you can...it will all pass us by if not. :) Love you girl.

Jane Craske said...

Let yourself have the time. Just let it wash over you. You control what you can, you work hard, you love your family. That's all you can do.

Now, a glass of wine and sitting in the garden will be just the thing (think I'll have that prescription tonight too C:).

Amber said...

Sometimes you just need to take a step back, listen and just reflect. I'm thinking of you and I know things will turn around. God has a plan.

Gail @ Sophisticated Steps said...

God certainly does have a plan for you Hanna, but it's more than just knowing He has a plan. It's a matter of trusting. There's nothing God wants more than for us to recognize our need for Him. This life can be really, really hard sometimes and without Him, I honestly don't know how I would make it. I don't WANT to try it on my own, because it never works. When we give up trying things in our own strength and let Him take over, there's a peace that comes than can't be explained by anything other than His love and grace.

I think this is a perfect verse for you to cling to right now...

Proverbs 3:5-6 "Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek His will in everything you do and He will direct your paths."

Okay...and this one, too (there are sooo many I could reference!)...1 Corinthians 2:9 "No eye has seen, no ear has heard, and no mind has imagined what God has planned for those who love him."

And I must quote my favorite verse of all time...Jeremiah 29:11 "'For I know the plans I have for you', says the Lord. 'They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.'" (LOVE that!)

Alright, alright. Just one more because it's so comforting. :)

Matthew 11:28, Jesus said "Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest."

I hope you know I'll be praying for you, Hanna. You have so much on your plate right now. I know how overwhelming things can feel. All I can say is there are so many times I have seen God work in my life in ways that could only be Him, but only because I gave Him my whole heart knowing nothing else could fill me and help me. I know He can do the same for you.

Take it a day at a time. I have seen that you're trying to be so strong, and I admire you for that, but it's too much for you to handle alone. You don't have to.

Praying today you'll feel the love being sent your way.

Neisa said...

I'm so sorry you are having a tough time right now. I too reach a point every once in a while where I'll just cry, for no reason. It happens to the best of us. Keep your head up, I promise, it will get better.

Kristin said...

I hope you're OK...I don't like hearing you're having such a hard time. I won't pretend to know what ails you or what will fix you...but know you are loved and you are so very special and unique and wonderful and gifted.

I love you, Hanna. Be well. I need you and your posts. :)
Kristin
(http://keenlykristin.com) in case you can't find me again. LOL.

Leanne said...

You are such a strong woman- you can get through this (and you know you can) :) - you have accomplished so much and you have done it before!

Take a minute or two to relax.

XO.

Melissa said...

Im sure that eerything will work out! =)

Your strong, remember that.

Susan said...

It's like Marina's comment is mine. I swear it.
I have had ridiculous anxiety since becoming a mom and it gets worse with every new baby.
Hang in there. And yoga? It is a saving grace as I'm sure running is for you.
Big virtual hugs friend.

Carole Rae said...

:( Silence and contemplation is usually the best medicine.

Char said...

I truly commend you for ALL you handle and all you accomplish on a day to day basis, and on top of that training for a marathon. You are a real life hero. Take your time, do what YOU need to do for YOU. I hope you know the support you have out here. Shoot me an email if you need/want to vent. I'm here, and in all crazy hours too :) Sending love and support your way beautiful lady!

Jamie Campbell said...

you are very strong. remember that.
xoxo.

i understand.

Kel said...

Sometimes the best thing to do is step back, take a breath and wait for the solution to come. Take your time and don't rush yourself - everything will be okay x

Yo Momma Runs said...

Thinking of you.

LolitaRose said...

All I can do is offer you virtual hugs, and let you know that you're still one of my biggest inspirations. Hanna I hope you have the best Mother's Day today, with your cute hubby and beautiful children. Sending positive thoughts your way, so you're able to overcome everything weighing you down.
<3

Annette said...

I'm new to your blog, having found you through Artful Blogging. Your story inspired and touched me and drew me here. You have been through and overcome so much that I know you will come through your current situation even better and stronger than you are now. Take time for yourself to just be!

Christy said...

Thinking of you. Hang in there! Best wishes at the doctor's office. Crossing my fingers for that shin!

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