It's been about 8 week since I have run any significant mileage and I must admit I am getting DESPERATE!!!
I miss it so much it hurts! I'm totally obsessed.
All I do is read running blogs, running magazines, marathon books, I've been planning my routes, scouting out new terrain, shopping for gear, signing up for races, planning marathons for next year!!!!!
I study people on the treadmill at the gym to see what I think their pace is.
I am desperate to run!
I know this all may sound very trivial but I have had to see my shrink twice a month since I stopped running because I am having a harder time dealing with my anxiety and stress load.
Running for me was my cure for everything.
I also am terrified I am going to gain weight. It's already been 2 months and if anything I have lost weight but I haven;t been eating all that well and I just have a feeling these workouts I've been doing aren't quiet providing the same results as running. When I'm running, I just don;t worry about what I'm eating. I have what I want in moderation but now I feel like i have to watch it. DISLIKE
All I'm saying is that I want to run so bad it's making me insane!!!! I NEVER want to get injured again. WORST.THING.EVER!!!
Running makes me SO happy!!!!! I miss it SO much!!!
My greatest fear is that I will go back to the doc after a month with this book on and he will say my leg still isn't healed.
If is is healed i will have NO idea where to begin with my training. I know VERY, VERY slow and cautious but I think I should probably see a physical therapist!
I am glad that I have found rowing and a few other exercises to keep me slightly distracted while I'm injured but I tell you I am REALLY starting to have a hard time!!!
I JUST WANT TO RUN AND RUN AND RUN!!!!!!
I'm up to 50 military push ups a day!!!! YES!!!!! I still can't do a pull up but I must admit I haven't been trying that hard!